Columbia Bound

As I move to Columbia in 2 weeks from today with no job and no prospects (not to mention all the other uncertainties and insecurities that are surfacing) I am reminded of a quotation that is scribbled in my Bible:

“I’ve tried to hold many things in my hands but I no longer possess them, but the things that I put in God’s hands, I still possess.” -Martin Luther

Wander

The Beast and the Easy

I walked on the beach last night for a really long time.  Actually, I can’t think of a time where I walked anywhere longer – ever.  As I was walking South along the coast I noticed something very interesting.  If I looked to the right I saw multi-million dollar homes with people sitting comfortably inside.  Lights were shining from every opening.  TVs were flickering blue and red.  It was the easy life, I guess, but I don’t know if you could call it life.  It was just the easy.  But, as I looked to my right I saw the ocean.  It’s waves beating against the sand.  The black sky mixing with the black waters.  It went on for eternity.  The only lights it saw were the billions of stars overhead.  It was so much more dangerous than the easy, but I imagined life there.  The Beast was full of life, nothing but life.  It’s tentacles stretching out to me with every step wanting to devour me, but not knowing it.  It reminded me of every quotation I had ever heard about the safe harbor.  I realized that life is for living.  It maybe hard, but it still has to be alive.

Missing

No, nothing is missing.  I haven’t lost my puppy or anything.  One day, a few months ago, I realized that I never had really missed anyone before.  I mean I’ve experienced it temporarily.  When it comes down to it, maybe I have never let anyone close enough to me for me to miss them.  No one has ever really been irreplaceable (besides my family of course, but I guess subconsciously I think that they will always be there).  I’m really happy that I’m finally meeting people and knowing people on such a level that when I’m not around them, I miss them.

*What brought this to the forefront of my mind is the movie Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.  I just watched it for the first time tonight.  I liked it.

Light